From
Spiritual Seeker to Spiritual Finder
I embarked upon the
Spiritual path many years ago and I, like most seekers, was
searching for real love, connection, joy and happiness. As
I embraced many Spiritual teachings my life improved dramatically.
Then, in 1990 A Course in Miracles helped me make my next
decision; to become a ‘finder’ rather than a seeker.
And that meant learning to relinquish the ego which is the
one unconscious saboteur of all our best intentions.
Then…after an awesome Spiritual Awakening experience
that lasted 2 years, the ‘I’ (that I thought I
was) came crashing down along with all that I believed to
be true. What was left of ‘me’ had to start over,
only this time …with willingness and a realization that
I was not a victim of the process of Spiritual Awakening.
I knew that what was falling away were simply all the unconscious
blocks that prevented me experiencing my true Identity; one
that cannot suffer.
Most of us don’t
yet realize that the ‘me’ we think we are, with
all its beliefs and values, is not who we really are. It’s
a mistaken identity called ‘ego’. It’s a
mass of unconscious beliefs responsible for causing all our
suffering. Beneath the ego is our real Identity, one that
is infinite love, joy and abundance. Unfortunately, most of
us (with all good intent) take the ego on a spiritual journey
resulting in only more suffering. The ego’s unconscious
mantra is ‘seek but do not find’ so the result
of seeking love, spiritual awakening and abundance is always
sabotage and loss. True love, abundance, peace and joy cannot
be known or acquired through our un-investigated ego.
Is the Ego Sabotaging
You?
Here is a quick test to evaluate how much the ego is negatively
influencing your perception. You can gauge any unconscious
guilt (ego) to the degree that you still experience the following:
• You either judge
others or perceive them judging you
• You judge yourself
• You take offense at others comments or acts
• You experience seeming injustice in the form of perceived
attack
• You perceive threat or anxiety when you hear or see
bad news
• You resist reality (with anxiety, anger or doubt)
when reality doesn’t meet your perceived needs
• Your perceived needs appear not to be met (money,
relationships, etc)
• You perceive scarcity
• You perceive struggle or sacrifice
• You feel physical discomfort or dis-ease
Undoing the ego is a
sacred process that reveals and reunites us with the Oneness
from which we seemed to separate. There is nothing to seek.
True Spiritual Awakening occurs when we dare to look at the
ways in which we sabotage ourselves; thereby undoing the blocks
to the awareness of the love that we are.
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